After losing my daughter, Trinity, I am writing to share how her short life has transformed mine. She was like a flash of lightening, a bright light gone in an instant, but the thunder that resulted is still reverberating today. It shook me to my core, but I’m still here, albeit rearranged.

(This "complete" blog is a 12 chapter mini-book, with a few stray posts at the "end". To read it like a book, please start with 02/12 at the top of the archive on the right.)

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

Happy 7th Baby Girl!

As the years multiply, my heart is filled with love and warmth at thoughts of you. I am so thankful the pain has eased exponentially. Though I still cry for you with certain songs, and when all the little girls who are your age dress up and perform at church, and when I hear of Daddy/Daughter Dances that you and your daddy cannot attend... These moments sting. But they are only moments now. I let those tears flow freely when they come, knowing there is no longer an endless supply threatening to drown me.

As my thoughts turn from me back to you, I take comfort that you are in a place devoid of tears. My mind still cannot grasp this unearthly concept, so I head back to my heart, where there is peace that truly surpasses all understanding, and there is an inexplicable assurance that we'll be together again - forever. 

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